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[Oct. 11th, 2007|01:03 am] |
I don't know who actually reads up on these things anymore.
but for those who i do..
im moving to seattle.
between jan and feb.
soo im going to miss everyone, a lot.
but i gots to do it. |
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[Jul. 29th, 2007|03:36 pm] |
Its days like today where i would love nothing more then to be sitting on my balcony at my home in seattle with a cup of coffee and a cigarette just staring out over the water and listening to meiko or sufjan, you know that sappy stuff.
I'm glad i get a chance to do that soon |
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[Jul. 6th, 2007|04:13 pm] |
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Second chances they don't never matter, people never change.
once a whore you're nothing more I'm sorry that'll never change. |
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| Life. Love. Music. |
[Jul. 4th, 2007|11:51 pm] |
I can't wait till life picks up.
I can't wait till I can move to seattle.
Anyone wanna be my roomie?
Lately i've had this ridiculously unhealthy obsession with aaron from the almost.
I hate groupies
why can't i stop myself?
That boy is just so beautiful to me
Warped tour seems way to far away.
Lets travel.
next time you go out of state, tell me
im coming with. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2007|02:47 am] |
I'm tired of people disrespecting us, and our home.
Thats all changing way soon though, once our friends get an apartment
they can go hang out there instead of here.
stop eating our food
stop using our wash rooms
stop taking our clothes
stop spilling your beer and staining my carpet
stop trashing my home.
I honestly can't say that the apartment i have been living in for the past.. good 5 months has yet to feel like home to me. I've been moved out since last year at the beginning of summer and there was once i a point in time that i called this place home. I get excited because all the roomies decided its room mate night and i get home and theres probably a total of 12 people here every night getting drunk and trashing this place. Yah its tight that everyone loves us and loves hanging out and its a place to kick it but thats all its become. This place isn't a home, its a place to get fucked up.
Not anymore.
get your own fucking apartment
pay your own god damn rent + bills
and then tell me i'm just being a bitch.
I've never been so in debt in my life and its because all the money i get goes to paying bills rent and food that supports about 10 people. Its ridiculous
get the fuck out of my home!
I was only going to post about how excited I am to be going down south for a week to disney land and hunington but it more so turned out to be a fit of distress.
Its bad, and the only reason i have yet to kick all these fuckers out is because they are all my good friends and i would do anything for them, i'll help support them when they have no where to live but its become a burden so hard core on the people that actually pay rent here it has to stop. Like tomorrow. |
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[May. 7th, 2007|04:27 am] |
live journal... pfff
who honestly useses this thing as they used to. |
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| Live in love. |
[Mar. 15th, 2007|02:26 pm] |
He never said girl your beautiful.
So i couldn't take it.
why do some things have to be SOOO hard to let go of. It easy when your mad to say i don't want to talk to you or see you ever again. But to realize that you really don't have any desire in your heart to want to be around that person is kind of depressing. and it makes it almost harder to realize that you actually don't want it anymore cause for 5 months you wanted nothing more you gave nothing less. Its like i don't want it at all but i don't want to let it go i want to want it still. but i just don't. I can't put myself around someone who is constantly putting me down. I mean hey maybe thats just my fault for letting things get to me so easily but everytime something is said drunken and jokingly all i think about is "wow, i can't believe that you can say something like that knowing that hurts me and not really care. because even if i were to act like what you said hurt me you wouldn't care at all. Then thats what starts to really hurt. That he doesn't really care they way i do." And thats all thats been running around in my mind for sooo long.
Were just so stuck in this moment but its clear that we're coming undone. Don't you see its hard for me to breathe when i get all worked up with these feelings and i don't know exactly how it is that we both consider ourself to not exist we both know theres so much love clenched within our fists. I just wanna know if this is this over? trembling silence feels the air as we stand here so impaired and so aware. |
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[Feb. 27th, 2007|01:18 pm] |
moving.
bigger apartment
1+ room mate.
new job at starbucks going way good.
a happy girl :] |
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[Jan. 24th, 2007|11:18 pm] |
So getting my wisdom teeth removed went a whole lot smoother then i could ever imagine.
Yah i was super drugged up and couldn't talk or text and fell asleep while eating mashpotatoes but after that jig i took the gauze out i stopped bleeding and im talking fine, no more numbness either. It just kinda feels like i bit the back of my cheeks really hard. Ive got my drugs to deal with any pain though.
I think i asked like 3 people for a blunt on my birthday.
Im excited.
So to many people keep bitching about lingere so
i think im gunna stick with just a plain costume party
i really wanna just do the whole risky buisness outfit.
so maybe i just want to run around in my underwear hella bad.
is that really so wrong? naaaah.
i don't think so.
p.s. tomorrow i get picked up by diamond himself taken home and taken care of. I also get to arrive to our newest addition dude. He is our pet turtle and you are jealous. |
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| life stuck on repeat again? |
[Jan. 23rd, 2007|12:57 am] |
Seriously this year is off to a very rocky start.
I finally hung out with Aly in chico and i love her to death
so i know that is the start to alot of weekends in chico with pita bread.
Things with travis have never been so complicated
i think we argue every single night.
I really don't want to ever argue again
even when i throw in the white towel and agree
or not scream and yell when i really really should
still the fighting continues!!
fuck the fighting in the asshooolllleee.
I'm also getting my wisdom teeth taken out on wednesday
my cheeks shall be huge.
and foods will be incredibly limited but thats okay
i need to cut out the junk anyway.
I also start my new job working with starbucks on monday
that is pretty exciting even though im sure i'll still be out of it
and im really really going to miss the lazy days
not having any responsibilities was really nice for a minute there
oh well time to grow up.
gots to pay those bills.
i miss aly.
chico was amazing.
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| Sarcasim is a form of communication. |
[Jan. 1st, 2007|11:21 pm] |
wow
its been 2007 for not even a day
and i already accomplished to screw things up
royally screw it up.
one of you will sweep it up won't you. |
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[Dec. 30th, 2006|05:08 pm] |
Oh Cocktails, how you slay me.
So far this weekend has been good to me.
Tomorrow is the last day of 2006
Again i can not believe the things that have happened this year
it really is ridiculous
this year is the biggest milestone in my entire life
I've been out of the country twice
I graduated from highschool
I traveled around this country more then i ever have
i moved out
and like hundreds of other things that are so big in my life.
honor academy, redifining my morals
paying my own rent?
crying and laughing harder then i ever have
I love my best friend, I am so thankful for this year
i've just done so much i have no idea how i'm going to top it.
Lets see next year so far i see beauty school,
my 19th bday jennas 21st bday woooo
potential move out in august
an amazing amazing amazing summer
oh yah next years gunna be good.
I HOPE I SEE YOU ALL ON NEW YEARS
im so excited to be going home for this.
LOVE LOVE LOVE. <3 |
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| its almost a new year. |
[Dec. 25th, 2006|12:08 am] |
New years has the potential to be the greatest night or the most devistating.
I'm really going for the positive though.
Come on 2007.
Don't let me down. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2006|01:17 am] |
This year has deff been the biggest year of my life.
I started this year off in London doing what i loved to do
Came home and shortly after I met and fell in love with one amazing person whom i still hold near and dear
I made some amazing relationships with a few people
I made a huge commitment to go to the H.A.
I graduated Highschool which is still weird because up untill that point that was my goal
I went to canada and spent an amazing summer, one last hooray before i was out of there
Watched Jenna graduate from an internship i was about to embark on.
I got in a few to many fights with my mom and i moved out
which if you still live at home, don't take for granite.
I live in a new town with my best friend and have a good job.
We've met some good people and starting making amazing relationships here
but now Jenna could be moving back to texas at the start of next year
So the only question i have left in my head is what could this next year possibly hold |
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[Nov. 16th, 2006|04:05 pm] |
no way.
i just wrote a huge entry
and it deleted it.
SCREW YOU LIVEJOURNAL.
SCREW YOOOOOOUUU!!! |
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[Nov. 12th, 2006|03:06 am] |
So talk of moving to orange county has come into play this past week.
Most likely it won't happen.
But theres been enough talk to make an update about it.
It would be super weird to move down there.
I wouldn' t know hardly anyone
and all my friends would be so far away
its not like they could stop by.
itd be really moving away.
far far far away.
So is texas though..
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I like my life though..
this is hard. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2006|01:42 am] |
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Its kind of sad how happy boys can make us girls.
oh well.
I'm freakin beaming.
:)
lalala loves it. |
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[Nov. 1st, 2006|02:55 pm] |
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Its pretty fair to say I am the happiest girl alive at the moment.
I have been for the past two days.
Its a good feeling..
Last night was ridiculous.
Got to see some amazing people
SF is wacko on halloween thats for sure.
I'm so glad i finally got to see jamie freakin santini.
it'll happen more often. you'll see.
uggh
i gotta do laundry.
i really don't want to. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2006|05:59 pm] |
Today, not so good. I called in work for the first time, stood up both of my interviews AGAIN for the 2nd day in a row at amazing jobs i could have had. I felt incredibly sick, my sleep schedule is soooo far off i probably won't go to sleep till 5am and wake up around 2pm. I hate feeling so dang lazy, its 6pm and i still haven't even put on clothes. still in pjays. Above everything, i REALLY hate not knowing anyone here. We are friends with 1 person who is a douche bag to me. He likes jenna so hes really nice to her and is cool when we are all together but if i call him to hang out hes a friggin jerk and i wouldn't mind not seeing him any more. Its friday night, i pick up jenna around 11. She'll probably come hom and be tired from work. We will sit here and be like "ehh lets do something" and then we won't. sit around and go to bed hella late. Im coming home tomorrow, i really can't take it here right now. As of this moment Pleasanton can bite me. Its such a cool area and i don't know how to get anywhere, whats even here, or anyone to kick it with.
Tomorrow is going to be such a better day.
I really miss my friends.
I miss having friends in general.
ha
im such a lameo. |
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[Oct. 20th, 2006|05:35 pm] |
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So what's the BENEFIT?
My new job, that's what.
:)
Dang it feels good to be gangster.
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